For now, I want to comment on my personal changes.
It has always been my desire to be a stay at home wife and mom. It has also been my husband's desire. Even more so, I have wanted to be at home with my kids, to homeschool.
October 2019 my husband and I got serious about our finances, took a class to get out of debt. Then March of 2020 the global pandemic hit, and it could have been a set back. But God. Psalm 23:1 says, "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want." What we were doing was in the will of God. God was not stopped by the pandemic. Things were tight, but we pushed on, we paid off debt, and stayed focused.
About 1 year ago, God started planting in my heart the idea of leaving the workforce as I knew it. I have worked since I was 14. I have always worked, it is what I know. But I was tired of having my heart and mind divided with being under the authority of a boss and my husband. So, in December my husband and I prayed intensively, and came the understanding that God wanted me to be at home serving my husband, with our kids and to homeschool. I turned in my resignation, and spent this last semester closing out my job and researching curriculum.
So, now I am at home. I am having quality time with each of my children. I'm working out more, I'm helping my husband with our business. I'm napping, I'm resting, I'm studying. I'm being restored.
Psalms 23:3 says, "He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake."
I have been able to attend an conference for women who serve and lead. And Merrily Hagarman, her husband preaches in Joshua Springs, CA, spoke a bit on Psalm 23. And for verse 3 she explained that the word restore means to be made back to what once was. God is doing this in me now. I'm being restored to the woman He intended for me.
I am drawing closer to God in this time. I'm off for the summer, for the first time in 23 years. I'm finding out who I am as a wife and mother who is only accountable to my husband and the Lord. It is such a sweet time, a pleasant time.
I am focusing and studying on who a godly wife and mom is. And my encouragement comes from Titus 2:4, "so that they may encourage the young women to love their husbands, to love their children." Older women are to show/teach/model how to love a husband and children. I love my husband and my three children. But I know I can do more, I can do better. I'm connecting with friends who are older, I'm observing, making notes, and praying.
I'm looking forward to this be season I am in. I plan on writing again. Bible study, prophecy updates, words of encouragement.
